37 week emotional appt.

Today's appt. was EMOTIONAL. The nurse comes in takes my BP, everything is fine, then goes to find the heartbeat. She seriously was trying for 5 minutes. She asked me if I felt movement...Um, YES. I told her she was making me really worry though. Then, I start crying. She said, let me go get the other doppler. I heard her whispering outside my door, and in walks, Theresa, my favorite nurse. She puts the doppler on my belly and immediately I hear Joshua. UGH. THANK GOD. I was sobbing. Theresa calmed me down, and told me it was nice and steady. Then, out goes Theresa and in comes the other nurse who has blood shot eyes and has been crying. She apologises profusely and gives me 3 hugs, and I start crying again. Then, in walks my Dr. who said that we've been through enough to have to go through that and he's sorry too. I just want Joshua here. I hate being pregnant and being scared ALL the time. Thank God Joshua moves all the time. I think now I'll probably be calling the office daily if he hasn't moved for an hour! They all know me at this office since I've been going for over a year now every couple weeks...and even the lady who schedules appt's told us she was so sorry we had to go through that scare...man word traveled fast! My next and LAST appt. is next Wed. Then, the following Tuesday I get to meet my boy :). Praying non stop that my son is healthy. I emotionally can't take anything else.