Brianna

Brianna is my sensitive girl with a big heart. The other day she went on and on while driving home from school. Literally 15 minutes with barely a breath...all because I told her she should make new friends and not just play with sister. She was worried that if she played with someone else on the playground it would hurt R and J (her best friends)'s feelings. We talked about how she could include everyone...how no one needed to be left out. Well, after going on and on she took a deep breath and said, "Thank you Mommy for listening to me". It was so so cute.

Well, tonight was Mikayla's night to pick the bedtime story, and she chose, Love You Forever. I read the book, and gave kisses and tucked the girls in. Then, Brianna got her serious face, and said, "Mommy, I want us to die at the same time". My eyes filled with tears, and I told her not to worry about that now. That hopefully we would go to Heaven when we're very old, and when Mommy goes to Heaven I will be in her heart and when it's her time I'll be waiting for her. She asked me how she would find me since your body stays on earth and just your spirit goes to Heaven (she's really listening when we explain things, huh!) I said, she'd know, and if not Jesus would direct her to me. These kind of topics are so so hard for me. I just want to scoop up my little, and tell her we are going to live happily ever after and nothing can hurt us. Though, I do want my kids to know about our faith, and trust that God has a perfect plan for us. It's such a fine line at this age though. Ugh...I'm crying now thinking about ever being away from my babies. Makes me thank God that I am their Mom, and pray that God's plan for us includes a long healthy life together.