Hard job

Being a parent is definitely the hardest job there is. Once you find out your expecting your heart is forever on your sleeve. Every concern, every joyful moment, every milestone, every fever, every fall...I feel it immensely. I've had a handful of mama moments that have been very difficult:

~an ultrasound with the girls that showed baby A's heart had a bright spot (usually an indicator of downs, but also can just heal in the womb and be nothing--for Mikayla obviously it was nothing)
~a brain ultrasound the girls needed during their NICU stay because they were preemies
~The girls' 10 day NICU stay.
~Hip ultrasound at 1 month old because they were breech and their pedi. was concerned.
~The girls' pedi. detected a heart murmer at their 2 year check up for both of them....it has since gone away and was nothing.
~Brianna hurt her ankle at a birthday party when she was 2.5 and needed x-rays
~Then, our loss at 12 weeks, our baby was a partial molar pregnancy.
~Being pregnant with Joshua and getting H1N1-talk about terrifying!
~Joshua's iron deficiency scare

Besides, losing our baby, these are all little things in life. I experienced another mama scare Saturday. While at a birthday party for one of my dearest friends' baby boy my 1st baby fell of the swing. Nelson was pushing the girls and I was pushing the baby and talking to friends. I didn't see Mikayla fall just heard the thud when she landed. Nelson said she let go when she was high up and flipped in the air and landed on her back. Her face was SO frightening. She got the wind knocked out of her and couldn't breathe, and her lips were turning blue. Thank God, Alison's a np and I knew her friend who is also a nurse. I yelled for her friend who was close by and she got Mikayla to breathe. It took her awhile to be back to herself, and after a trip to after hours and some x-rays we were all able to sleep tight. She just had bruising, and is fine. But, boy these moments as a parent are hard.

I'm so grateful to have a husband who is the perfect parenting partner, and a faith in God to know that He won't give me more than I can handle, and a support system of amazing friends and family who love me and my children and are here when I need them. This job may be a hard one, but the benefits are worth it. With every smile, "I love you", hug, kiss, new experience, makes all this job a great one--even with the hard moments scattered in there.

To all you Mommy's...you all rock! Every Mom deserves to be told often how great they are, because it's not an easy job! I wouldn't give it up for the world....best job out there!